I wrote these words, trying to explain to myself how I came to be so insecure. the first part is about my first attempt at a dating relationship. I was trying to sound like eric's trip on this song.
lyrics
I woke up at 8 and called you. still in bed, I played guitar, worried, and called at 9. I thought the devil was taking hold
of my heart with his cold grasp. it was miserable and I just had to know that you also loved me more than any concrete thing; forever. but I could tell the worst parts of me were found and my failure was surely gonna tear down the scant satisfaction I had, since I had been so bad. I put another hole in the wall that day. I'm sorry I ever thought you could fix someone so fraught and fifteen.
since then I've tried in any way I can find to build security out of successes, but when you tell me I was great i say thanks but think "how could you say that? and why am I wasting your time with this crap. what do you care?" you can't fix someone who dared and folded
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